Monday, January 26, 2009

Where is that light at the end of the tunnel?

Well, I was really hoping to post something exciting today! I was going to talk about going out with the girls last night to see Bride Wars and I was going to post a picture of the new girls' purse Billie and I made yesterday (I might feel up to that tomorrow). I really thought this would be a celebration day, but our plans are not Gods. Jonathan got a call today to let him know that he did not get the position that he wanted and interviewed (4 times!) for. He was told that an internal applicant was chosen for the position. I know that we should not have been so set on him getting this job, but we were excited anyway. We really have been asking God for guidance and with the many prayer warriors keeping us in their prayers, we really thought this job was going to be God's will. We are now back at square 0. The only other company (in over 2 months) that has called him back for an interview is a company that neither of us are comfortable with with. He feels like he needs to accept this offer because it's the only thing out there and we have bills to pay. This company will pay much less that what he was making in his previous job (although it is better than nothing). But he will be working 50 to 60 hours a week and on the weekends so we will barely even see each other! He will also be working so many hours that he doesn't know how he will continue the job hunt by doing interviews if other companies call him. I feel like we're in a dark tunnel and we can't find the way out. I know that we need to trust in Jesus in these dark times, but it's hard to not understand God's ways. I am thankful for family and friends surrounding us with their kind words and prayers. During this Bible Study I'm in I have reread the book of Philippians each day for two weeks (although I have skipped some days). Philippians really has some uplifting scripture that I am clinging to during these times.

Phil 2:14 says "Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe."
Phil 4:4-9 "Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you."

These verses have really helped me to keep my focus on God and He really has given us peace for the past two months. We just need to not get discouraged with this bump in the road, but to yet again to remain in Him and he will remain in us. He is our only true peace or joy in times of rejoicing or trials.

OK God, I think we've learned our lesson on trust and we at least see a ray of light at the end of our tunnel?? Even if it's just a peek?? :)


chellybelly said...

I'm so sorry to hear this news! I had been praying and was waiting to hear from Lindsy today. How discouraged you all must feel... Sometimes when I feel so beat up from life I like to read this verse and picture God lifting up my head when I just don't want to anymore.
Psalm 3:3 But you are a shield around me, O LORD; you bestow glory on me and lift up my head.
I will continue to pray for you and Jonathan!

Martin Ray Vaughan said...

I'm praying as well! I would like to put this prayer request on the exchange if that's ok.
I like the blog layout - you guys just hang in there and if you ever need anything, Tasha and I are here for you.

wvnana said...

I can hardly see the keys for tears flowing without control. I was reading your blog and when I got to the scriptures you posted, I just started crying. I don't know what God was doing in my spirit. He must be so proud of your faith in this journey. I know you can trust God to where He is taking you and Jonathan. Rod and I are praying for wisdom and discernment in the decisions you will be faced in making. We continue to pray for you. Be encouraged, God has His best in mind for you.
Marlene (Tim's mom)