Rollercoaster... Of Love...

I don't even know where to start!  Today Jonathan and I had a routine ultrasound before the D&C on Friday.  We had come to terms with the miscarriage and weren't expecting anything other than to hear the details for the "procedure" on Friday.  Well, the ultrasound tech asked if I was bleeding or cramping and I said no that the only thing that had been wrong with me was some serious nausea.  She said that was a good sign and I thought that was weird... a good sign for what?  We already know there is no baby and that the nausea was from the high levels of hormones from the drugs I was on.  The Doctor told me last week to let others know about the miscarriage because there was less than a 1% chance they would find something this week.  She wanted us to have a support system in our grieving. 

WELL... The ultrasound tech (who was playing K-Love and I found out goes to my church!) said that she could see the heart beating!!!  WHA???  HEART?  THERE'S A BABY??  Oh my goodness!  We couldn't believe it, but we were watching it with our own eyes!  We could see the baby and see the little heart pounding and hear the heartbeat.  God is good, isn't he?  She said that "things sometimes can't be explained."  My Doctor came in and was flabbergasted.  She didn't seem to know what to say at all.  She apologized for telling us to tell people and for not being optimistic last week.  But we assured her that we saw the empty sac too.  So they are changing my due date to November 9th (which ironically was the day that baby Eli was due).  They said that the baby is measuring 7 weeks and 1 day, where last week from their count of my cycle I was 7 weeks.  They said this could be why there was no heartbeat last week because it was too early.  But it still does not explain why there was no baby last week!  Nothing that the Dr., tech, or we could see at all!  We should have seen a blob of something like the first ultrasound I had.

God is awesome!  He has absolutely answered prayers in miraculous ways!  We of course would have announced our pregnancy a little further on (after 12 weeks) in a more fun way, but we will take this!  So here it is.... WE ARE HAVING A BABY!!!  I am trying to be cautious until after the 12 week mark just because I know what a heart-break it is to "lose" a baby even if it was only for a week.

Thank you again for all your kind words of encouragement and prayers.  We love you all and are so excited for you all to walk down this new road with us!  Here are a couple pictures...

Yes, 3 tests.  I couldn't believe the first two so I made Jonathan go to the store to get the digital one!

This was our first ultrasound.  That black blob in the left corner is the pregnancy sac and that tiny white speck is the baby.

Obviously we did not get a picture from the ultrasound that showed no baby in the sack.  Pretty sure I didn't want a souvenir.

These pictures are from today.  Not that you can really make anything out... But it shows a BABY!  The first picture is actually 3D.

This is how Dakota told his Aunt Lindsy, Uncle Tim, Aunt Billie, and Uncle Derek (and cousin Eli!).  They were the only ones we could tell in person since this whole thing has been crazy.  I really didn't want to tell our parents such news over the phone, but we couldn't wait after this rollercoaster we've been through!  (The scarf was not part of "the look".  He got groomed today so it's his Easter scarf!)