Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Rollercoaster... Of Love...

I don't even know where to start!  Today Jonathan and I had a routine ultrasound before the D&C on Friday.  We had come to terms with the miscarriage and weren't expecting anything other than to hear the details for the "procedure" on Friday.  Well, the ultrasound tech asked if I was bleeding or cramping and I said no that the only thing that had been wrong with me was some serious nausea.  She said that was a good sign and I thought that was weird... a good sign for what?  We already know there is no baby and that the nausea was from the high levels of hormones from the drugs I was on.  The Doctor told me last week to let others know about the miscarriage because there was less than a 1% chance they would find something this week.  She wanted us to have a support system in our grieving. 

WELL... The ultrasound tech (who was playing K-Love and I found out goes to my church!) said that she could see the heart beating!!!  WHA???  HEART?  THERE'S A BABY??  Oh my goodness!  We couldn't believe it, but we were watching it with our own eyes!  We could see the baby and see the little heart pounding and hear the heartbeat.  God is good, isn't he?  She said that "things sometimes can't be explained."  My Doctor came in and was flabbergasted.  She didn't seem to know what to say at all.  She apologized for telling us to tell people and for not being optimistic last week.  But we assured her that we saw the empty sac too.  So they are changing my due date to November 9th (which ironically was the day that baby Eli was due).  They said that the baby is measuring 7 weeks and 1 day, where last week from their count of my cycle I was 7 weeks.  They said this could be why there was no heartbeat last week because it was too early.  But it still does not explain why there was no baby last week!  Nothing that the Dr., tech, or we could see at all!  We should have seen a blob of something like the first ultrasound I had.

God is awesome!  He has absolutely answered prayers in miraculous ways!  We of course would have announced our pregnancy a little further on (after 12 weeks) in a more fun way, but we will take this!  So here it is.... WE ARE HAVING A BABY!!!  I am trying to be cautious until after the 12 week mark just because I know what a heart-break it is to "lose" a baby even if it was only for a week.

Thank you again for all your kind words of encouragement and prayers.  We love you all and are so excited for you all to walk down this new road with us!  Here are a couple pictures...

Yes, 3 tests.  I couldn't believe the first two so I made Jonathan go to the store to get the digital one!
This was our first ultrasound.  That black blob in the left corner is the pregnancy sac and that tiny white speck is the baby.
Obviously we did not get a picture from the ultrasound that showed no baby in the sack.  Pretty sure I didn't want a souvenir.

These pictures are from today.  Not that you can really make anything out... But it shows a BABY!  The first picture is actually 3D.
This is how Dakota told his Aunt Lindsy, Uncle Tim, Aunt Billie, and Uncle Derek (and cousin Eli!).  They were the only ones we could tell in person since this whole thing has been crazy.  I really didn't want to tell our parents such news over the phone, but we couldn't wait after this rollercoaster we've been through!  (The scarf was not part of "the look".  He got groomed today so it's his Easter scarf!)

19 comments:

Marlene said...

WOW, our God is so GOOD. I didn't know we would be shouting for joy when you are victorious and lifting up our banners in the name of our God so soon. We continue to pray. I know you will breathe a little easier after the 12 week mark. May God continue to strengthen and keep you.

Murdock's mama said...

What a miracle! Praying for your family during this whole process! So excited for you guys...you'll be amazing parents! I LOVE the dog shirt...I plan to do the same thing! :)

Abby

Jess :) said...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!! I am SO SUPER EXCITED for you and Jonathan! :) This is amazing news and a HUGE PRAISE the LORD!! I just can't stop smiling and I can only imagine how you are feeling right now!! What an absolute BLESSING!

Sending you big HUGS and continued prayers for this precious little gift God has blessed you with!

Justin and Jessica said...

Congratulations! We are so excited for you! :)

Justin and Jessica said...

I laughed about the 3 tests - I took 4 - after the first two I was sure I had messed something up, so I sent Justin to the store ... in the end I took a total of 7 over 24 hours. All of my "levels" at the doctor's office had been too low or negative so we were told there was no way I was pregnant.

Again, we're so happy for you!

Lindsy said...

Seriously - I am just your friend and am totally a passenger in your rollercoaster even if a few cars back. Oh my word - I just can't even express how happy I am. Words can't do my feelings justice. I am happy to be a part of this little miracle baby's journey! He or She TRULY is a miracle - God just wanted him/her to meet his/her Mommy and Daddy. What a good God we serve too! Contiuing to pray but so thankful for joy and hope in this moment. Hugs!

Sue said...

ABBY!!!! I came back tonight to check in on you and YAY!!!! PTL!!!! I am SOOOOOOOOO excited for you Sweetie. God is totally a God of miracles as I've so witnessed this year with my niece's triplets... and now your little miracle. I am so thrilled for you and can't wait to journey along with you, albeit in cyber world! A HUGE congrats to you and Jonathan and I'll sure be praying your little "peanut" stays strong. Big Hugs to you xoxo

Katie Kermeen Swisher said...

OH MY GOODNESS!!! I am in tears...God is just SO GOOD!!! We will be praying for you guys and this little miracle.

Want to know a little secret? We have a miracle too! We're due 1 week after you guys!!! I am in awe of how great God is...

Lisa said...

AHHHHH!!! YAY!!!!!! I am beyond words excited for you guys! What a crazy emotional roller coaster you guys have been on. And now there is a BABY!!! CONGRATULATIONS and THANK YOU GOD!!!

Chelsea said...

If I knew you and you were close by I'd give you a big fat pregnant hug!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so happy for you. What a miracle! Of course we shouldn't be surprised because our God can do those things any time He wants to... but WOW. Amazing!

Jeff Presley said...

That is amazing news. I didn't know any of that and i am just 2 doors down. I am surprised i didn't hear any celebratory shouts coming from you office.

derrick said...

How awesome. We had a very similar experience with believing doctors over what God was doing. But He prevailed in an awesome way... three kids later!

Marlene said...

I am so excited and grateful, even more so this morning. I love seeing Abigail Burns on the untrasound pics and the tests are a beautiful sight. You are a beautiful lady. Just so excited. Give baby Burns a love rub for me and hugs to you and Jonathan

Shannon said...

This is great news Abby!!! Congratulations!!

Christy said...

Oh Abby, what fantastic news! Congrats you guys! God is good!

Janine said...

All I can say is YAY YAY YAY!!!! I am still in awe and so happy for y'all! Let the rollercoaster continue...but it's a fun trip! :) So good to talk to you last night and thank you for sharing with me. GOOD LUCK, fellow mommy-to-be! ;)

Brooks and Kendra said...

What awesome news. God is so powerful and good!!! This little guy or girl is such a sweet miracle. I'll be praying for you and the little one during this pregnancy. Keep us updated and thanks for sharing :)

Seizing My Day said...

New visitor and follower ;)
I have a little girl named Abby!
Such an honest heart! I love reading the 'heart on your sleeve' blogs... it is how I roll too!
Praise the Lord for that little heart beat!
Looking forward to getting to know you...
and watching this journey unfold! ;)

Amy Prikazsky said...

Oh MY! I had no idea! I've been out of the blogging world for so long...CONGRATS! I'm so happy for you:)